October 15 is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day, where we honor the moms who have lost babies to miscarriage, stillbirth, SIDS, or the death of a newborn. I had different plans. I had nearly accepted that having a “traditional” family was not in the cards. We were focused on adoption and researching what that […]
To my Little Bear, October 15 is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. It was established on this day in 1988. So, today I remember you. But that seems so ridiculous. Because I remember you every day. I remember how it felt to learn you existed. I remember how it felt to carry you inside […]
Before I move any further, I need to acknowledge that I am aware that everyone’s story doesn’t have a rainbow, a happy package, an evolution of soul. And there are a lot of us, 20%. I will forever hold your hand and send peace to your heart. My parents had a baby before me — a sister, […]
I knew I was pregnant, even though the first few tests were negative. I joked that I was just waiting for Clearblue to get on the same page as me. With or without a positive test, I had no doubt that a little life was rapidly growing inside of me. Sure enough, I got a […]
Kimmy! You’re a mom {we love those} … you are pregnant {you know we’re excited for you} … and you’ve got the grand stage {we’re somewhat jelly}. But you’ve rolled all that together and somehow decided to use it to let us know that pregnancy is “the worst experience of your life”??? We’re so sad – like […]
I read an article years ago about making investments in your 20’s and 30’s, and these weren’t investments of the financial nature – they were investments in people. It was a reminder to not forget to make deposits when the responsibilities of home, babies, careers, and marriages found a way to quickly turn weeks into […]
It was May 2012 when I joined the strangest of clubs. It was then that I lost a baby. You can call it a fetus if you’d like, an embryo even, but to me—it was a life. I had started to think of names, to wonder if we would paint pink or blue. I had […]
Prior to this pregnancy, my husband and I had been trying to conceive for a little over a year and a half and had already experienced one miscarriage. However, we started fertility again, and after going through IUI, we finally got the positive we had been dreaming of. Little did we know – at 7.5 […]
Mother’s instinct. If you don’t believe in it, I am here to tell you it’s a real thing. I woke up one morning, 25 weeks and 2 days pregnant with our second child, and discovered some spotting. I didn’t have anything remotely close to this with my pregnancy with our nearly 18 month old daughter, […]
To the people reading this post because they saw the word – infertility – and thought they were going to find the magic answer in my blog post, I’m sorry. I’m sorry because there is no magic answer, and no right way. No right decision. No perfect solution. I’m also sorry because my bout in […]
